Jobsearch depression

[robotech_master]

Well, it's approaching time to pull on a decent shirt, grab my copies of my newly-shortened resume, and wander off to apply for jobs at a couple of places. I wonder why I find myself so profoundly lethargic when it comes time to do things like this? I find myself ticking up all the zillion little things I'll have to do, and wondering if it's really worth the bother.

Which is a silly thing to say--of course it's worth the bother, I need a job, and I've about reached the limits of how I can support myself with the limited resources that I have. But when I contemplate doing it, this sort of numbing depression weighs me down.

Nobody's ever going to hire me. I don't have the skills it takes to get a job. I don't know anything about the things I'm supposed to know. I should have paid better attention in class. I don't deserve this degree. My friends tell me that the point of college was to "learn how to learn," and that I'll be trained on the job, but what do they know? They program like naturals. Programming scares and frustrates me. If I was really any good at all, shouldn't I have been hired by now?

So goes my life.

I guess I need to focus on one thing at a time, or something, and just go out there to try to make people hire me. But it's hard to feel hopeful when one has very little confidence in one's own self-worth.

Comments

[slog.livejournal.com]

yes, but you have skills and services other people don't have...take that into account ;)