Deep Doldrums
May. 26th, 2002 11:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robotech_masterWell, I've been reminded that today is my brother's son's first year birthday party. Starting at 3:00. Which is all very well and good, but I work at 4:00 and I'm really not sure I want to go. I'm not really very fond of these social occasions, and just dropping by for half an hour might be worse than not even going by. And add to that the fact that it would only be polite to have brought by a birthday present of some kind...and I have approximately no money with which to buy one.
In other news, I've gone ahead and signed on for another day of availability at K-Mart. I had been down to 3 a week in the forlorn belief that the temp agency would find me some lucrative jobs to fill in the slack. Not one peep from them. So more of my ill-spent free time goes back to working. Yay.
I need to see if there are more places I can drop off my new resume. Or send it. It's just so hard to get any energy up to do it. I'm at that point of depression where I want a job just to fall into my lap. But it'll never happen. If only, if only I had been better about "making contacts" when I was in school. Joining professional organizations or something. Making more friends. Being better to the friends I had made...because I'm pretty sure I've burned enough bridges with the friends who would be in a position to offer me a job in my major that there's no way in hell they would.
How can I blame them? They're probably right.
So I have a 4 to 10 shift tonight. Closing. I dislike those...means spending an hour of tortuous boredom in a nearly-empty store, then the fun of pulling money out of trays from the self-checkout machines and rubber-banding it all together...in fact, under normal circumstances, my availability ends at 9 for precisely that reason. But sometimes I get asked if I can come in, and sometimes I get scheduled there because it's an "emergency" and they can't get anyone else to fill in.
I need to do something to shake these doldrums. Blast it, I want to feel useful. I want to be working at a job, and making money, and paying off my student loan debt, and living in a nicer place, and driving a nicer car, and buying a faster machine and all the computer games I'm missing out on playing from not having any money. It's just that I'm fundamentally lazy and I have no idea how to get there from here.
In other news, I've gone ahead and signed on for another day of availability at K-Mart. I had been down to 3 a week in the forlorn belief that the temp agency would find me some lucrative jobs to fill in the slack. Not one peep from them. So more of my ill-spent free time goes back to working. Yay.
I need to see if there are more places I can drop off my new resume. Or send it. It's just so hard to get any energy up to do it. I'm at that point of depression where I want a job just to fall into my lap. But it'll never happen. If only, if only I had been better about "making contacts" when I was in school. Joining professional organizations or something. Making more friends. Being better to the friends I had made...because I'm pretty sure I've burned enough bridges with the friends who would be in a position to offer me a job in my major that there's no way in hell they would.
How can I blame them? They're probably right.
So I have a 4 to 10 shift tonight. Closing. I dislike those...means spending an hour of tortuous boredom in a nearly-empty store, then the fun of pulling money out of trays from the self-checkout machines and rubber-banding it all together...in fact, under normal circumstances, my availability ends at 9 for precisely that reason. But sometimes I get asked if I can come in, and sometimes I get scheduled there because it's an "emergency" and they can't get anyone else to fill in.
I need to do something to shake these doldrums. Blast it, I want to feel useful. I want to be working at a job, and making money, and paying off my student loan debt, and living in a nicer place, and driving a nicer car, and buying a faster machine and all the computer games I'm missing out on playing from not having any money. It's just that I'm fundamentally lazy and I have no idea how to get there from here.
